Anxiety

Feels like floating in murky water in my skull. Nothing but empty, hollow whispers to abate the already emaciated corpse of my soul as its eyes stare into the void with no stars with a promise that they might be there tomorrow...

Feels like every step has myself sinking into the sands of the desert that is my parched self esteem where only the cries of a thousand shattered dreams rise above the deafening silence of thought.

May this land that is my mind be restored tomorrow. May my dreams wash away the traces of the panic attack as the pool fills once more in my skull.

Mistress

So, your words come to me again,

Their honeyed tinge licking lashes.

I hear what you ask of me,

Your sweet promises trace their way down my spine.

I feel your touch take hold of me,

Your delicate fingers trace the girth of my neck.

Your eyes gaze into mine again,

Their sensual smolder warms my blood.

You ask me to dance with you again,

My heart shivers in your delicate grasp.

My breath hitches as you pull me in

My knees go weak as your lips ghost close to mine

We linger there, never to kiss,

The song ends it's sweet serenade

My tears well inside my eyes,

Your gentle touch wipe them away

My words catch in my throat,

The release of your hold takes my breath away

I try to reach for you once more,

Your saddened smile cools my head

Your tears fall as you turn away

Your heels click as you leave me once more

It's strange, this perverse dalliance of ours

It's shameful how weak you make me

I know one day, I might give in

But until then

I hope that we

Can dance again.

The Daily Grind

 

Golden rays in streaks of light shine in

     Why can't the silver light of the moon be eternal

The chorus of people's laughter reverberates through my window

     I miss the still peace of the dead of night

I'm told to come and hang out more with family

     Mist I leave the safety of my inner sanctuary

My eyes flutter closed to enjoy a restful sleep

     Does it really have to end

My consciousness is embraced by the goddess of dreams

     Can't she just never let me go

My phone chimes to wake me from my slumber

     I guess this all starts again...

Golden rays in streaks of light shine in

Raven

Hello raven silhouette

I see you've come to me again.

Hello cold-steel razor wings

You've come, it seems, to hold me again.

I hear your hollow caw

It echoes through my ears again.

I see your blood red eyes

They pierce my soul once more.

I can feel your hard beak

It nuzzles against me, scratching my cheek

I can smell your copper aroma

It makes me dizzy again.

Come to me again, oh raven

Take me from this place.

Grasp me in your claws, oh Corvus Corax

Please fly me away.

The Man on the Flying Trapeze

Come one come all, as he's brought to his knees
Come see the Man on the Flying Trapeze

Marvel as his arms go out to his side
Wonder as his legs go to jelly

Watch as a step turns into a stumble
Gasp as he falls once again

Tell him again to get out of his chair
Say he's overreacting as his mind says the chair's falling

Gawk as he clutches the railing on the stairs
Gasp as he falls on his ass

Come once more as he's brought to his knees
Witness how his balance is a flying trapeze

Cheer as his legs try to keep him aloft
As his balance tells him he's falling

No it's true this man's not on a flying trapeze
But isn't this Freak Show great?

The Moon Goddess

Her hair flowed in the aether like a goddess of eternal beauty
Her eyes held the brilliance of the stars
Her coat had the beauty of the night sky above
So how could she fall for me?

My hair is as simple as the dirt below her
My eyes, as polls of mud that stare at her grace
My coat of a rusted hue has no purpose with the night
So why must I torture myself

She is lonely as the moon she holds
In that, we are the same
My love for her burns every night
So maybe I can warm her heart

As long as she is here
I will hold her in my heart
As long as she needs comfort
I will bare my soul

All this, for my darling Luna

Daily Life

I get out of bed sluggishly

Why can I no longer succumb to the power of my dreams?

My heart feels pressure almost like it will collapse

Why can I only be blessed by Benzaiten in my slumber?

My soul left my eyes long ago

Why can’t I stay in my dreams?

Every step I make feels listless and forced

Why must every day feel like jisatsu?

Anything I hear is quickly lost into my fog of unconsciousness

How many times must I feel tortured?

Any smile I make is dull and dead

Why must I even awaken myself?

As the day goes on my spirit never returns

Why must each day be Jigoku when dreams are Tengoku?

I slowly drag myself away to bed

Do I really have to get up tomorrow?

My eyes drop and bring my back to heaven

Would anyone really miss me if I never woke up?

I cry with joy when I see the girl of my dreams again

Since she’s the only one that loves me like this, would it matter?

I squeeze her tender flesh in my arms and gently sob on her shoulder.

Can’t I just stay here forever?

She tenderly strokes my head and tenderly gazes at my fragile form

Why must I go back to hell when I could just have heaven?

I gingerly bring my lips to hers

Can’t I just be happy?

Before I can kiss her hooks dig into my back

Do I not belong here either

I am ripped from my maiden’s arms

At least I can come back again.

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